You could love alcohol, and you could hate it too. It's funny how alcohol could make you do and say things you couldn't when you were sober. And what's funnier is, whatever happens, you can't take back what's already happened. You can't take back the words that alcohol coerced you to say; you can't take back the acts. How could it have felt so good when it was so wrong? How could you feel for another one when hours ago you were sure of THE one? What do you do when a friendship and a relationship are on the brink of your drinking glass? You just got to hate alcohol.

Make use of blogs. Write, write, write. Release. Practice writing (taglish!? amp). Whatever. That's what I've been thinking. Cos lately days have been... bad. But it's just like monthly period... yung tipong once a month talaga nada-drama mode ako. Haha. Kasi life is like a wheel, right. Sometimes you're up, sometimes you're down. Sometimes you're listening to party music, and sometimes you're listening to somber ones. Awsh.

Nakakabadtrip na ewan. I just realized since last night na there will really come a time na you'll feel lonely. I felt very very lonely last night kasi. Parang I didn't feel special to that special friend. Parang, IBA NA kasi HINDI NA AKO KASAMA. Hindi ko alam. Ang babaw. Ang babaw talaga pero sakin parang dinamdam ko. Sensitive ako e. Tae.

Edi yun, another falling out siguro. Tapos sobrang nakaka-lonely kasi kahit si Roi di ko makausap ng matino. Busy, busy, rotc. Shit. Buti si Daniella nakausap ko. At naintindihan nya. Thank god. May nakausap din. Sa dinami-dami kasi ng mga kaibigan ko 1% lang ang comportable ako sabihan ng mga personal things. Tapos yung 1% mababawasan pa.

Luckily, umalis sila Tita and I was able to talk to Roi the whole night. That made me feel better. Though I think there are times na hindi naman talaga niya maintindihan yung sinasabi ko. Or he's too tired to understand it.

Pero ang shit nanaman ng sinasabi ko diba? Kasi dahil nga diyan kaya kami nag away nanaman kanina. Nakakainis kasi nakakaiyak kahit sa text. Sabihan ka ba naman "I'm always not want you want me to be" tapos sobrang ibaba yung sarili niya. Tapos biglang "you're losing your optimism. Kung ano man ako sayo... nakaka-depress ka." Tapos... napaisip lang ako.

I'm losing my optimism. Siguro nga. I lost my focus? Focused more kasi on the negative things... like it's bad kasi he doesn't laugh when we talk so that means he isn't happy talking to me. And like... bakit pag kausap niya blockmates niya he laughs pero pag sakin, we talk about serious shit. Study your lessons, bring your books home, blah blah blah.

Boom, boom, boom, away. Pero di mo rin talaga matitiis eh. Mawawala at mawawala yung inis. Magsisisi ka. Magsosorry ka. Mansusuyo ka. Pero mararamdaman mo... and sarap ng feeling pag ayos na kayo. Parang gusto mo nalang yakapin siya.

Si Nikko ang emo. :( I'm always too weak to be someone else's cure. No matter how much I try... I can't make him feel better. Even the McVideogame didn't help. It's sad. And tonight, I lost track of time. Mag-11 na pala. Goodnight.

I AM I AM I AM turning 16 in 3 days! I am very much excited, I do not know why. :0 I had a quite good day today! :D

It's on June 22! :D

- Eyelash curler (ohh I am ghey, yes!)
- Leg make-up (hahaha.)
- Club mix cd's ;)
- Need For Speed Carbon or Underground (for PC)
- Neon pink and neon green nail polish
- a surprise
- a night out! :D (or house party)

Lmao. See, I don't ask for a lot of things. xD

Hallo! :) I gots a new lj layout. Thank you thefulcrum! Haha.

School started last Monday for us. Guess what shit!? I'm vice president for our lame-ass class! xD Haha. Lucky booger me! :D

I'm not in the same class as purrfectworld and purebloodqueen but it's fine, I have my pretty Rairai and perverted Far and Dv! <3 :) I'll miss my bestfriend though. :( It's the last year of highschool and we're not in the same class. That's shit. :(

I HAVE TO WORK ON PHYSICS REPORT.
I'll write again sometime. Byebye!

Btw, RENT is awesomely awesome. :D